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keletkezes
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Location: Nottingham, UK
PostPosted: Mon Jan 28, 2019 9:47 am 
 

InnesI wrote:
I think it depends on what you study. I tend to see that there are more prestigious universities in the fields of economics compared to the field of the humanities for example. I've studied at 3 different universities and from what I've seen the quality of the programs are similar (read: very uneven at every university regardless of its reputation).

Totally agree.

I have a BA in German & Russian, BSc in Quantity Surveying & Construction Commercial Management, then went back to my first love (languages and cultures) and achieved an MA (by research) in Russian Studies. I currently work in University admin and have done since I finished the BSc: I was made redundant from the job that was paying me to do the course in 2009.
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Joined: Mon Jan 11, 2016 7:36 am
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PostPosted: Wed Mar 27, 2019 3:27 pm 
 

It's really tough in a third world like Kenya even for graduates with high levels of unemployment. I studied Fashion Design and Marketing where we are only and always told to employ ourselves, even though I guess majority of the world is run by SMEs. I worked a shitty sales job after graduation quit, and now I am underemployed teaching tailoring at a local polytechnic. Haha.

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MathemagicalMisanthropist
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Joined: Sun Mar 10, 2019 10:52 am
Posts: 14
PostPosted: Thu Mar 28, 2019 6:41 am 
 

I have a master's degree on maths with algebraic topology as my specialisation.

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ReignInBloodyGore
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Joined: Sat Jan 14, 2017 9:53 pm
Posts: 59
Location: China
PostPosted: Sat Mar 30, 2019 8:41 am 
 

I have a bachelors degree in music education with an emphasis on instrumental music, and after having a rough student teaching semester (thanks to a bitch teacher I was assigned to) I lost interest in teaching music. So I moved out of state to Arizona for a Masters and a Doctorate, both in violin performance.

Was it worth it? Not sure. I earn more money at the international school I now teach for, so I guess so, but a doctorate is incredibly unnecessary for this level of work too. However, I perform in Shanghai quite a bit and mostly people here will hire me easily just because of my degrees. So I guess it can go a long way in some cases.

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PostPosted: Sun Mar 31, 2019 1:38 pm 
 

ReignInBloodyGore wrote:
I have a bachelors degree in music education with an emphasis on instrumental music, and after having a rough student teaching semester (thanks to a bitch teacher I was assigned to) I lost interest in teaching music. So I moved out of state to Arizona for a Masters and a Doctorate, both in violin performance.

Was it worth it? Not sure. I earn more money at the international school I now teach for, so I guess so, but a doctorate is incredibly unnecessary for this level of work too. However, I perform in Shanghai quite a bit and mostly people here will hire me easily just because of my degrees. So I guess it can go a long way in some cases.

Hell yeah further education if it earns you more money, cause it's about it at the end of the day. I am also preparing to further my education, but in a field I regret not joining for my bachelor's; accounting. Maybe the accountants in here can shed some light on that profession. These days I dream of nothing but it :-)

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gasmask_colostomy
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Location: Behind the wall of fire v.2
PostPosted: Tue Apr 02, 2019 10:47 am 
 

I did English Literature in Wales, Modern Literature in England, and then went to China. I teach English in an appliance manufacturing company and try to write metal reviews when nobody's watching.

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schizoid
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Joined: Mon Jul 19, 2004 8:35 am
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Location: New Zealand
PostPosted: Wed Apr 03, 2019 6:57 am 
 

gasmask_colostomy wrote:
I teach English in an appliance manufacturing company .


Wait, what? Is that some sort of up-skilling initiative the company has?
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gasmask_colostomy
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PostPosted: Wed Apr 03, 2019 10:13 am 
 

schizoid wrote:
gasmask_colostomy wrote:
I teach English in an appliance manufacturing company .


Wait, what? Is that some sort of up-skilling initiative the company has?

You could say that. It's a big company with lots of international business, so a good number of the office workers and engineers need at least solid English. It's also a benefit for the staff, because education is a hit in China.

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Poisonfume
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Location: Greece
PostPosted: Wed Apr 03, 2019 11:57 am 
 

I have a Master of Laws in EU Law and am comfortably employed. I'd love to tell you that the degree isn't everything... so I will. The degree is only the beginning of the hustle.
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Smoking_Gnu
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PostPosted: Wed Apr 03, 2019 12:27 pm 
 

Bachelors in English and Journalism. Started out as a reporter, was terrible at it, eventually moved into technical writing for an IT company. Basically making help articles, user guides, developer docs, setup info and the like.

The IT field has as huge push for user-friendliness these days, so there's a surprisingly large demand in IT companies for people who can write well, which basically makes english majors more useful than the stereotypes would otherwise have one believe. Or at least that would be the case if university english programs actually gave students info on real-world opportunities, but most of them just try to fast-track you into graduate work. I tell everyone I know who wants to study English to also get/get a journalism degree instead, because that actually shows employers that you're capable of writing for an audience, and actually gives you industry experience before you graduate. (hell, reporting field sucks so much these days that most of my j-school peers are also now doing marketing/pr/tech writing work instead.) If you get out of school without any writing samples you're pretty much fucked.
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Thumbman
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Location: Canada
PostPosted: Wed Apr 03, 2019 1:07 pm 
 

Things are looking up for me in the first time in a while. It's still very demanding, but the Law Clerk program is going well and I just obtained an internship at a law firm.
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Osore
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Joined: Thu Apr 10, 2014 9:55 am
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Location: Serbia
PostPosted: Thu Apr 11, 2019 2:04 pm 
 

I hold a BSc in biology and I'm currently finishing a master's degree, also in biology. Both degrees are focused on molecular biology and physiology. It was interesting to know how in USA, Canada and even some European countries (despite all of us being a part of Bologna process) you have the system of majors and minors and you can chose from a very broad array of subjects. I had 32 obligatory and 8 elective courses on my basic academic studies and the only elective course that is not a natural science is English language. The most electives were biological, like aquatic microbiology, advanced course in histology, comparative animal embryology...
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Location: Canada
PostPosted: Tue Apr 23, 2019 8:09 pm 
 

As of now, Computer Science (Specialist). I also have a StackOverflow and Github account contributing semi-actively right now, though I did work extensively on the Candy Crush wikis.
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sonero9
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Joined: Sun Sep 22, 2019 4:05 am
Posts: 58
PostPosted: Thu May 21, 2020 12:07 pm 
 

I'm a mature student of community development, and after completing this degree I'd like to study software engineering, to join IT area.

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Methuen
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Location: United Kingdom
PostPosted: Thu May 21, 2020 3:46 pm 
 

History, Military History, Philosophy, and I've started a new course to earn a BD.

Naturally, I work in corporate risk :lol:
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Burning_Missive
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Location: United States of America
PostPosted: Thu May 21, 2020 7:43 pm 
 

I went to film school where I focused on cinematography. Got my bachelor's degree with honors, moved to Los Angeles, and have spent almost all of my twelve years here in post-production; the first year as a post-production assistant, next two years as an assistant editor and the last nine years as an editor/lead editor. When I was in school, I always envisioned I'd be in production for most of my life, but when I got to L.A. and went through production training camp, I realized it wasn't for me. I love being behind camera and setting up the lighting, but production life takes a special type of person to be able to do it year in and year out and I learned the hard way that that life isn't for me. Being able to craft a story after the footage is shot and using the elements of music, sound design and graphics suits me well and tests my creativity in ways that I didn't imagine back in college.

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PostPosted: Fri May 22, 2020 12:24 am 
 

Got a history degree. Gonna go back for more because I love pain.

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last_eulogy
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Posts: 194
PostPosted: Mon Jun 22, 2020 3:16 pm 
 

I went to college for Psychology. I was going to work towards the field of Criminal Psychology. I admire anyone who can work full time and go to college. Its exhausting. I ended up super burnt out and never went back. Did about 3 years off and on.
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Subrick
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Location: United States
PostPosted: Mon Jun 22, 2020 4:42 pm 
 

I went to community college for one semester in the summer of 2016 for marketing. I didn't even really want to go myself, as I only did it to try and appease my father, who I was living with at the time before moving states and starting school. I was good at it, and I passed all my classes (except lab math, which can eat a dick as far as I'm concerned), but I just had no real desire to continue with it any further. Didn't help that I was already working and living on my own, which meant school took up any time I could've had to work more and make more money. I still almost went back for a second semester in the fall had the school not screwed up my admissions. I don't fully remember what happened, but the gist of it is that I was unable to register for any classes that fall, and the school somehow couldn't correct this. It ended with me getting my full student loan balance refunded to me before I even paid a single cent in monthly installments, as I took out a school-supplied loan for the entire time I would have been in school there that year (that was a nice four digit check in the mail), and I was free and clear to essentially drop out without any penalty or lasting terms. I never went back.

I will say though that if somehow all the stars aligned and I was able to go back to school and have no financial burden placed upon me (see: Only if there's universal tuition, which ain't gonna happen in the US), AND I was able to still comfortably live without going insane, I'd go to school to be a political scientist and lawyer, as getting involved in the recent surge of BLM and left-wing activism in this country has inspired me to want to be more active in public interest work.
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Osore
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Joined: Thu Apr 10, 2014 9:55 am
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Location: Serbia
PostPosted: Mon Jun 22, 2020 6:37 pm 
 

Subrick wrote:
universal tuition ain't gonna happen in the US

Apart from the health system, that's another thing I dislike about US. It's a shame since you have some of the top ranked universities.

In communist Yugoslavia education was free on all levels, including academic studies. Now in Serbia it is possible to study for free only if you are high enough on the list which is made based on your scores from the previous year. I studied for free for 5 years, paid the master's and this year I had to pay only 20% for the first year of my PhD studies. All in all, it is still better than not having a possibility to study for free at all.

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TragedyMask
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Location: United States
PostPosted: Fri Jun 26, 2020 7:01 am 
 

AA in Marketing. Because I’m lazy and also had aspirations of being the devil.

Now I teach guitar lessons on the weekends and am primarily a stay-at-home dad/homemaker. I softened significantly.
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Jonpo
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PostPosted: Fri Jun 26, 2020 9:28 am 
 

I went to a cheap community college for one semester and pulled a 0.7 GPA. I basically just didn't go to class. At the end of it I felt like scum for wasting my parents money and decided that since I had no idea what I wanted to study anyways I should just bail out of it and get a job.

And that job was in IT, lol. After about 7 years of that I flipped over to healthcare, in customer service roles. I'm more or less a receptionist working from home these days. Schedule appointments, coordinate referrals, medication refills, minor issues. The job is honestly a nightmare because most of my co-workers act like children so we get treated like children or worse. But I'm confident enough to say that I'm really good on the phones and I do try to use my limited scope of power to help people bend and sometimes outright break the rules to get the care they need.
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MorbidEarth
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Location: United Kingdom
PostPosted: Mon Jun 29, 2020 3:37 pm 
 

I have a Bachelors degree in History and a Masters degree in Archives. I'm currently working as an archivist.

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Pitiless Wanderer
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Location: United States
PostPosted: Wed Jul 01, 2020 12:17 am 
 

I just put myself back in school a few months ago for a second master's degree, All I do is go back to school, it seems like. It never fucking ends!

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BlackFlag
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Joined: Thu Jun 08, 2006 2:30 pm
Posts: 225
PostPosted: Mon Jul 06, 2020 2:08 am 
 

I started economics when I was a teenager; I dropped it out because I felt it was boring and unchallenging.

So I studied agronomics, which I finished 10 years ago. In the end it became sort of deceiving.

Then I coursed a master's degree in environmental engineering and management: a waste of time and money, but I have a diploma.

As I hate leaving stuff unfinished I retook economics five years ago as a part time hobby. And I have to say it's been much more fun after the financial crisis. I've just completed the degree in June, with honors, so next year I'm going to start a master's degree in Big Data analysis in economics and business. I guess nowadays all roads lead to IT, don't they?

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Bloodstone
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Joined: Thu Mar 11, 2004 11:48 am
Posts: 350
Location: Sweden
PostPosted: Mon Jul 06, 2020 7:36 am 
 

English and P.E. teacher at university. ~25000$ in student debt, but zero interest in the actual teaching profession, it turns out. Oopsie!

Now I work in IT. Making a good living while also paying off my debt, so can't really complain.
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Simfers
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Location: Gatineau, Québec, Canada
PostPosted: Mon Jul 13, 2020 1:35 pm 
 

Got a bachelor's in translation (English to French) from Laval University in Quebec City. Now work as a translator for the Federal Government. Have done for 17 years, 18 in September.

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Location: United States
PostPosted: Mon Jul 13, 2020 2:31 pm 
 

History, with minors in education and poli-sci. Taught history at the high school level for a couple of years. I found I wasn't psychologically cut out for teaching on several different levels. Bummed around from job to job for 15 years or so. Coil winder at a transformer factory until we got a union drive going and they shut down the plant posthaste. Worked in the print shop for the local paper...until we got a union drive going and they moved the actual printing work down the mountain to Greenville. Outsourced call center work for bank...then we got a union drive going and they closed the call center. Y'all see the pattern? I was working as fly fishing guide for the 3 years leading up to last summer. I came out as trans and was let go because, "You're not the best fit for the culture of the shop, you know?" I spent like 7-8 months just dealing with transitioning. Was looking at getting back into the workforce back in the spring, but, COVID and all that sweet, sweet jazz. Staring down the barrel of being 40, and this is definitely not where I thought I'd be back when I left for college at 18.
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Location: Edgystan
PostPosted: Mon Jul 13, 2020 2:55 pm 
 

I currently study for a BA in Economics and International Relations, but I'm probably gonna quit after this year ends, so idk.
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Face_your_fear_79
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Joined: Sun Sep 21, 2014 8:18 am
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Location: United States
PostPosted: Wed Jul 15, 2020 4:30 am 
 

I did not go to college because I know the inevitable situation that will occur. Currently unemployed and have been for years now. Stuck in a huge rut and may not get out of it. Probably will not.

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Methuen
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Joined: Tue May 19, 2015 4:55 pm
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Location: United Kingdom
PostPosted: Wed Jul 15, 2020 5:24 am 
 

Does anyone have experience with non-traditional degree granting institutions ?

I'm pretty much giving up on the long-distance 'trad' Uni I've been working with, as they're just an admin nightmare run by accountants. There are a few non-university institutions I like the look of, but I'm not sure if they're just a waste of time / money / effort.

Interested to hear if anyone has taken a degree / higher course from somewhere not a uni & had a good time ?
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red_blood_inside
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Location: Argentina
PostPosted: Wed Jul 15, 2020 7:15 pm 
 

I have a degree in biology, enthomology to be specific. But then I moved to another city and went back to college and studied Biochemestry. Now work in a lab doing clinical analisys (cholestero, glucose, TSH and the so)
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Unorthodox
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PostPosted: Wed Jul 15, 2020 8:02 pm 
 

Information Technology. The black hole of career paths in the 21st century.
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Korpgud
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Joined: Sat Jul 13, 2013 7:09 pm
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Location: Sweden
PostPosted: Fri Jul 24, 2020 2:53 am 
 

I have a bachelor in applied foreign languages, with majors in English and German. Went to to do a master's in conference interpreting. Was supposed to start working for the EU this year, but then Corona happened.
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Five_Nails
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PostPosted: Sat Jul 25, 2020 1:12 am 
 

Took enough history courses for my major, finished off the capstone (final courses for a BA with a passable paper I wrote on Japanese-American interment in WWII), and finished enough classes for a minor in Spanish language. Tried minoring in education as well since that was the path that kept getting pushed at me by family, faculty, and friends. It wasn't for me when I was grading papers in a remedial history class at a city middle school with bars on the windows.

I was told by both my grandfather and mother who had gotten through the school that it was easy to get into but tough to get out of. They weren't lying. That grandfather died two months before I started school there anyway. I got a good picture of them both laying next to the brick with their names on it on the quad a few months before when we were visiting colleges. He didn't get my weirdness, I don't blame him, but he was so reassuring and I was such a teenage dirtbag. It's one of my mom's fondest memories of the time before it all went to shit, the potential back then is more what she hopes to remember. My grandfather also designed the building I had my polysci, communication, and English classes in. He became a civil engineer after an accelerated course so he could go into the Navy and ended up on Admiral Halsey's staff in WWII. Still he saw some serious shit being part of Argus units before ending up on an admiral's staff. Navajo code talkers and all https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/United_States_Navy_Argus_Units.

Massive digression, but he left a helmet hidden in the attic that we found after my grandmother died. It's a US Army helmet from WWII that he talked about before. It has a bullet hole from the left ear throughout the back of the head. He said he'd put it on whenever he was feeling down. It was his "bitch helmet" as he called it and it helped him to remember how much worse things could be. That definitely helped out during the covid-19 months at my job this year. He had real courage, all I did was sweat in plastic around desiccating vegetables. We never found the bag of "Jap teeth" that he used to say he had to scare his mother though. He was a funny guy.

My grandmother took a fall some years after I started school (while living alone) that wrecked her really badly. I'd already finished more than enough courses to graduate (senior year) while the advisors I consulted pushed me to take electives that, while they assured me would count as gen-eds, ended up screwing up my gen-ed situation necessitating more gen-ed courses to balance out the degree and even out what was a major in history so that my major wasn't the majority of my education. It only makes sense if you throw money at it, which I wasn't willing to keep doing. My parents didn't know that my grandmother was in the hospital despite being the emergency contact, this was clearly an emergency. It wasn't until two weeks after the fall that they got a phone call from a CNA who gave my grandmother a cell phone that we knew there was something wrong. Things had piled up by then for us all with a new scholastic year beginning.

She had been kidnapped by the same nursing home my grandfather died in and was kept incommunicado from family due to (very mild) dementia, hers was very light compared to what I know now and really she was very with it during that year. I used to get so angry seeing her slip away over the years. Her story cycles (she was always a story repeater from the day I was born and even when my mother was a child) went from fifteen minutes to less than three in the time I took care of her. I watched the clock to see just how long they lasted. Entirely against state regulations, they refused or neglected her requests to access to a phone. I know now it's usually just pushing someone off to another shift or waiting long enough until they forget and need to cycle back, I've seen it too much now and I make sure these folks get a phone in their hands and get their handy numbers dialed. More families thank you for it than get annoyed. She was very independent but we'd still check up on her, take her out to lunch, and see her just about every week. When she wasn't returning calls my folks got worried but I didn't know any of it because I wasn't even near them while at school and doing anything but learning.

Instead of sorting out the mess I made of my life I cut the college cord, stayed with my grandmother and took up a new tether. I dropped out with all the history education I wanted anyway, and kept care of her until she died. There I found a new messy life to try to organize over a couple of years and moved in permanently a year later when it was clear she couldn't do it on her own anymore but was too proud to ask anything of a failure grandson. My parents went to see my aunt, that aunt had was losing a husband to a stroke so they had to run pronto. I saw that as an opportunity to leave with some semblance of agency without having a military veteran dad claim that this was his idea and play the steering party in the situation. (Yeah, there's a lot of douche in my maneuvers, I know.)

Now (with a lot of in between time left out of this endless tale) I'm a college dropout with a 401k, health, dental, and life insurance working in a nursing home after finding something good in the wake of some terrible walk-on jobs. The main reason I moved in with my grandmother was because of the insult of a raise I was offered by one job and her adage: Illegitimi non carborundum (don't let the bastards get you down). This thread makes me at least feel a little better about being a failure, but that failure throughout college didn't make any of the outer-curricular work any easier. The outer world showed me just how much I am willing to put up with while college showed me just how little I can think of myself or be when left to myself. The best thing I did in college was get into more metal bands than I could have imagined, but it didn't mean that bridges weren't burned along the stumbling drunken way. Sorry Learza. If I had stayed there, I wouldn't have the work ethic I have now, but at least I can be secure enough knowing I'd be unemployed now or in the same place anyway with how shit things have turned for the rest of the world.

Reminds me of the Robert Frost poem that I memorized for some extra credit: https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/44272/the-road-not-taken, the same class where the instructor gave us a poem by another poet that was damn easy to decipher then accused the class of plagiarism for hitting the same easily-decipherable points. Maybe that was her test to see who would get angry about an accusation like that in order to out whoever really plagiarized when they got indignant. I got indignant and didn't plagiarize, rarely talked to classmates anyway (only my weed smoking buddies in a pair of shared rooms where we piled a bathroom vanity with vodka bottles) it was a transparent poem that even sparknotes would have just put up verbatim in order to summarize the point.

Still, there were some epic parties. One night we had a rager with a hundred or so people packing a house that some friends had rented. I had my best friend and brother come up to show them a fun weekend and never expected the insanity of that night that was supposed to be just a kegger with the bunch for a 21st. A girl who loved candy flipping and was like our group's hot lesbian sister gave me a quarter of weed because I was a "responsible kid" and told me to smoke up anyone who asked. The keg, that nearly sank the back of my friend's shitbox Yaris, was finished in about an hour, the whole crowd was rapping Biggie verbatim at one point, there was a rap battle between a kid who spat about leaving Bosnia during the Yugoslav breakup and another kid who got absolutely punked. The kid whose birthday it was ended up bloodying himself by beating up a mirror while the majority of the party ran from the cops and I got told for the third time in my life, at four in the morning by a melting down girl I goofed on who banged my latest roommate and ranted about crystals, magic, and spiritual powers, that "this is why you will die alone". It was an awesome night.

The coastal town where the kids rented houses would put orange stickers on the windows of places that partied too hard. That house got two that night. Usually it's one per incident. Not with this party. A third would be calls for a lien on the property owners and banning rentals per town ordinance. Again, it was a safety school, not for the state, for the region. We slept it off in a pool room under a carpet and woke up a few hours later to kill the wounded (drink all the unfinished brews). Those stickers became badges of honor whereas the campus frats had the honors of being things like ZBT (the rape house that roofied the jungle juice for the freshman mixer). I drank some and luckily didn't get sick. My first college party the first week of freshman year was in that frat house, unfuckable long-haired muffin-top titty-boy suburbanite I was. The frats were dogshit organizations of a few dozen kids only differentiating from each other by the direction their golf visors went. The last big Greek week they had was my freshman year and the amount of people filling the street outside my dorm, the drinking, and wild partying made the administration really clamp down. It was a "dry campus" and a "Pepsi school". Puritanical and Corporate, got to love New England.

Luckily 420 celebrations survived another couple of years. I followed a "riot" one night. The Red Sox were winning against Tampa Bay in a series and the chant "fuck the Rays" echoed throughout the ghetto, the area where a lot of older dorms were all piled on top of each other. I followed the show with the stoners, watched the cops try to corral a crowd with police cars on the quad. It was a sight. My mom and grandpa's brick had a skid mark on it after that night. The big Facebook picture was an overturned trashcan sardonically referred to as the "chaos" of the great campus riot.

By the time I left campus all the partying turned somber and instead "stop the hate" marches were a weekly mainstay. The school had a Student Union. As it turned out, freshman year the parties there were where all the black kids partied. They got wanded by cops, patted down, grinded to the same beat with a dozen rappers over it. The white kids partied in houses, all were welcome, no one patted down or weirded out by cops and wands, and everyone grinded to the same beat with a dozen rappers over it. That was eye-opening, but not as eye-opening as the dorm time after the Student Union party. I went back with some girls and one of the girl's boyfriends. We were doing tequila shots with the lime and salt, they went down very quickly. I was incredibly hammered and somehow got back to my dorm a few floors down. Then I had to heave the second I got into bed. I mean it was an immediate yak attack. I left a trail of puke from my room to the bathroom and covered the bathroom in puke to boot, and then booted some more. The custodian the next morning literally yelled "what the fuck!" when they saw it as I hid hungover and tried to die. It was one of many of my not the best moments.

Freshman year there was a class called [school] 101 where you went to the Women's center to learn how men rape women, went to the Multicultural Center to learn how white people rape the world, go to the police station to learn how drugs and alcohol rape your brain, and hear from administration about how college rapes your rights and your wallet forever to come. For a place that wanted you to really experience every shade and viewpoint of everything, they really tried to scare you away from thirteenth grade and make a 17 year old white guy who hated himself in the first place know he's not very welcome because of all the potential horrible things he's about to become. So why not just be fucked up and avoid a reality you weren't ready for in the first place when you signed a contract underage that really shouldn't hold up in any court?

My freshman roommate was part of a frat that never got recognized by the college anyway, he woke me up banging an orange New Jersey oompa loompa upstairs (our room had a unique and hazardous wrought iron spiral staircase between two two-person dorms) more than once and one extra special time because she cried "you came in my mouth". I still remember the awful soundtrack to those escapades
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and his annoying alarm was "I can ride my bike with no handlebars, no handlebars"
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while I was into
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and let it be known at four in the morning waking up to that unjerkoffable Charlie and the Cum Factory sequel.

Sophomore year, we were watching a meteor shower while a couple of kids were fucked up on acid and hitting a Bob Marley monogrammed steamroller. It was a calm year beset by self-loathing and school visits where I saw nothing but "challenged" students as a first step to becoming a teacher. No wonder I ran screaming from education.

Senior year, a friend from the previous year got us all kicked out of a place for pissing off the deck at a bar on his 21st before we went from party to party slamming back brews and I ripped a gram and a half to my face in one hit from the cleanest bong I ever smoked. It had at least a hundred perks in concentric circs and it was alpine trees the whole way down. We ended the night back home after seeing a kid destroy his own house while I smashed a bottle every place we left. I went full asshole that night, grabbed beers out of boxes people walked by with and all. There were some fun times, that's what you get from a safety school. It was better that way, my failure in any moment other than partying was nothing but apparent and obvious that it was due to simply my lack of appreciation for what I was offered and never attempting to reconcile it with my endless self-destructive bent that landed me inpatient twice in my time at college for attempts. It was apparent especially to myself who rarely swallowed the courage to try because fearing failure brought failure and being a failure was just the dump I was destined for.

One summer I tried to do something useful after getting out of an inpatient program. My dad always liked to use the phrase "why don't you make yourself useful" before offering a task. It still makes me feel like nothing but shit. I found a listing online for a historian who wanted someone to help him write a new edition of his book. He was a guy who had escaped Germany during WWII, became historian emeritus at a college and wrote about Napoleon's dealings with Spain during Napoleon's conquests. He was on the island only a bridge away from my folks house in a nursing home. I jumped at the chance. We were getting things done, I had gotten some copies of his books off Amazon and had already been editing some of the pages he gave me when we got the phone call. My last grandpa was in full renal failure. He could die any time now. My father was his oldest son and decided to sit down and house brews after hearing the news.

The piss and vinegar got into me. I was sober but full of drunken courage. I dragged him into the car, put on my playlist of Isis (metal, not terrorist) albums, cranked it up and went at 100 down the highway. It was the only good thing I'd done in a long time.

We spent three nights there and the rest of the family had finally gotten together in that time. The night that we were offered to take a bit of time and freshen up, he died. I'm the douche who convinced my dad to be there for his dying dad, and then pussed out when it went on too long. He died after we came to my maternal grandmother's house to sleep in beds.

After that I ended up ghosting the elderly emeritus due to my own spasms of stupidity after watching my paternal grandfather die in the middle of this attempt at personal transformation. Six months later, the professor died. I let him down, let my dad down, let both my grandfathers down, and am nothing but a fucking cunt for it.

Since all of that shit I've had to face more reality than I should have ever needed to finally get the message through my thick head, find some moments of courage in life, failed in plenty other ways there as well, but at least after all this time I'm employed and doing better than a majority of the economy anyway while still having plenty of fun in the back of my mind to remember before becoming maggot feed. Best thing to remember before any next attempt is full-time, 401k, health, dental, life. Just wait out my parents and not make the same mistakes again.

Though a lot more of it is merely abject failure in a time of Motorola Razrs, dejected suburbanite rap extolling the opposite of anything I ever agreed with in freshman year:
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, and GTA4. If I could go back I'd do much better while the world would keep on trucking
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, and that'd be fine by me because at least then I'd be able to say I did my best. I never was able to before I left college as a shameful shite, since then at least I'm a little better and have long outlived what I've ever thought I deserved in those bouts of shameful self-loathing.

Thirty is just over a month away now, funny enough I'm sort of making something of myself. Plus a kid who bullied me when I was a kid blew his own brains out not too long ago, so at least I outlived another worse asshole than me.

The close to that chapter in my life was in March. My last cat died at the age of 17. My mother likes to joke that I live in "Our House" with "two cats in the yard" since I buried both my brother's last year and mine in March next to each other in a house that has also seen three family members go out into final journies:
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.

Now I'm finally alone, barely able to hold down an outdated dilapidated house with my take-home that has spent nearly a century in the family, but at least it's a place for me that I've worked and will work my ass off to earn my keep in.

The next chapter opened two weeks after I buried Snowy, my fat dumb cat that I raised from a puffball, when covid-19 came to my job. Forty-nine deaths is a great way to start the next chapter, 'The Second Great Depression'.

Prepare the maggots.
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PostPosted: Sat Jul 25, 2020 1:44 am 
 

For fuck's sake Nails, just be a goddamn writer already. This is the best post on the site.
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I was about to say- one of the most entertaining posts I've ever read on this site :lol:

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The piss and vinegar got into me. I was sober but full of drunken courage


This is the stuff of high class literature, not postings on a metal forum.
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